THETAKING OF PELHAM ONETWOTHREE Paperback - 2009

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• Title THETAKING OF PELHAM ONETWOTHREE
• Author Godey, John
• Binding Paperback
• Edition Reprint
• Pages 384
• Language EN
• Publisher Berkley, New York
• Date 2009-05-05
• ISBN 9780425228791

STEEVER

Steever stood on the southbound local platform of the Lexington Avenue line at Fifty- ninth Street and chewed his gum with a gentle motion of his heavy jaws, like a softmouthed retriever schooled to hold game firmly but without bruising it.

His posture was relaxed and at the same time emphatic, as if a low center of gravity and some inner certitude combined to make him casually immovable. He wore a navy blue raincoat, neatly buttoned, and a dark gray hat tilted forward, not rakishly but squarely, the brim bent at a sharp angle over his forehead, throwing a rhomboid of shadow over his eyes. His sideburns and the hair at the back of his head were white, dramatic against the darkness of his complexion, unexpected in a man who appeared to be in his early thirties.

The florist’s box was outsize, suggesting an opulent, even overwhelming burst of blooms inside, designed for some once- in- a-lifetime anniversary or to make amends for an enormous sin or betrayal. If any of the passengers on the platform were inclined to smile at that joke of a florist’s box, in respect of the unlikely man who held it so negligently under his arm, aimed upward at a forty- five degree angle toward the grimy station ceiling, they managed to suppress it. He wasn’t a man to smile at, however sympathetically.

Steever did not stir, or show any sign of anticipation or even awareness, when the approaching train gave off its first distant vibrations, gradually increasing through various levels and quantities of sound. Four- eyed—amber and white marker lights over white sealed- beam headlights— Pelham One Two Three lumbered into the station. Brakes sighed; the train settled; the doors rattled open. Steever was positioned precisely so that he faced the center door of the fifth car of the ten- car train. He entered the car, turned left, and walked to the isolated double seat directly facing the conductor’s cab. It was unoccupied. He sat down, standing the florist’s box between his knees, and glancing incuriously at the back of the conductor, who was leaning well forward out of his window, inspecting the platform.

Steever clasped his hands on the top of the florist’s box. They were very broad hands, with short, thick fingers. The doors closed, and the train started with a lurch that tilted the passengers first backward, then forward. Steever, without seeming to brace himself, barely moved.

Ryder withheld the token for a part of a second— a pause that was imperceptible to an eye but that his consciousness registered— before dropping it into the slot and pushing through the turnstile. Walking toward the platform, he examined his hesitancy with the token. Nerves? Nonsense. A concession, maybe even a form of consecration, on the eve of battle, but nothing else. You lived or you died. Holding the brown valise in his left hand, the heavily weighted Valpac in his right, he stepped onto the Twenty eighth Street station platform and walked toward the south end. He stopped on a line with the placard that hung over the edge of the platform, bearing the number 10, black on a white ground, indicating the point where the front of a ten- car train stopped. As usual, there were a few front- end haunters— as he had taken to thinking of them— including the inevitable overachiever who stood well beyond the 10 placard, and would have to scurry back when the train came in. The front- enders, he had long ago determined, expressed a dominant facet of the human condition: the mindless need to be first, to run ahead of the pack for the simple sake of being ahead. He eased back against the wall and set his suitcases down, one on each side of him, just touching the edge of his shoes. His navy blue raincoat touched the wall only lightly, but any contact would ensure picking up grime, grit, dust particles, even, possibly, some graffito freshly applied in hot red lipstick and even hotter bitterness or irony. Shrugging, he pulled the brim of his dark- gray hat decisively lower over his eyes, which were gray and still and set deeply in bony sockets, promising a more ascetic face than the rounded cheeks and the puffy area around his lips justified. He leaned more of his weight against the wall and slid his hands into the deep slashed pockets of the coat. A fingernail caught on a fluff of nylon. Gently, using his free hand outside the pocket to anchor the nylon, he disengaged his finger and withdrew his hand.

A rumbling sound heightened to a clatter, and an express train whipped through on the northbound track, its lights flickering between the pillars like a defective movie film. At the edge of the platform, a man glared at the disappearing express, then turned to Ryder, appealing for communion, for sympathy. Ryder looked at him with the absolute neutrality that was the authentic mask of the subway rider, of any New Yorker, or perhaps the actual face New Yorkers were born with, or issued, or, wherever they were born, assumed once they won their spurs as bona fide residents. The man, indifferent to the rebuff, paced the platform, muttering indignantly. Beyond him, across the four sets of tracks, the northbound platform provided a dreary mirror image of the southbound: the tiled rectangle reading “28th Street,” the dirty walls, the gray floor, the resigned or impatient passengers, the rear- end haunters (and what was their hangup?)...

The pacing man turned abruptly to the edge of the platform, planted his feet on the yellow line, bent at the waist, and peered back down the track. Down- platform, there were three more leaners, supplicants praying to the dark tunnel beyond the station. Ryder heard the sound of an approaching train and saw the leaners retreat, but only a few inches, giving ground grudgingly, cautiously challenging the train to kill them if it dared. It swept into the station, and its front end stopped in precise alignment with the overhanging placard. Ryder looked at his watch. Two to go. Ten minutes. He came away from the wall, turned, and studied the nearby poster.

It was the Levy’s Bread ad, an old friend. He had first seen it when it was newly installed, pristine and unmarked. But it had begun accumulating graffiti (or defacements, in the official language) almost at once. It pictured a black child eating Levy’s bread, and the caption read YOU DON’T HAVE TO BE JEWISH TO LOVE LEVY’S. This was followed by an angry scrawl in red ballpoint ink: BUT YOU DO HAVE TO BE A NIGGER TO CHEAT ON WELFARE AND SUPPORT YOUR LITTLE BLACK BASTARDS. Beneath that, in block letters, as if to cancel out bitterness with the simple antidote of piety, were the words JESUS SAVES. But still another hand, neither raging nor sweet, perhaps above the battle, had added PLAID STAMPS.

Three separate entries followed, whose message Ryder had never been able to fathom:

VOICE IDENTIFICATION DOES NOT PROVE SPEECH CONTENT. PSYCHIATRY IS BASED ON FICTION NOVELS. SCREWWORMS CAUSE SPITTING. After that, the ideologue took over again, riposte following riposte: MARX STINX. SO DOES JESUS CHRIST. SO DOES PANTHER. SO DOES EVERYBODY. SO DOES I. Such as it was, Ryder thought, it was the true voice of the people, squeezing out their anxieties into the public view, never questioning that they deserved a hearing. He turned away from the poster and watched the tail of the train whip out of the station. He put his back against the wall again, between his suitcases, and looked casually down- platform. A figure in blue was walking toward him. Ryder picked out his insignia— a Transit Authority cop. He noted details: one shoulder lower than the other so that he seemed to be listing, bushy carrot- colored sideburns curling down to a point an inch below the earlobes... A car length away the TA cop stopped, glanced at him, then faced squarely outward. He folded his arms across his chest, unfolded them, took his hat off. The hair on top of his head was reddish brown, several shades darker than his sideburns, and it was matted from the pressure of the hat. He looked into his hat, then put it back on his head and folded his arms again.

Across the tracks a northbound local arrived, paused, and moved on. The TA cop turned his head and found Ryder looking at him. He faced front immediately and straightened his back. It brought his low shoulder up and improved his posture.

As soon as a train cleared a station, the conductor was expected to step out of the shelter of his cab and provide information and other assistance as requested by the riding public. Bud Carmody was well aware that too few conductors followed this regulation. More often than not they just hung around in the cab staring at the colorless walls racing by. But that wasn’t the way he ran the job. He did it by the book, and more: He liked maintaining a neat appearance; he liked presenting a smiling countenance and answering dumb questions. He enjoyed his work. Bud Carmody regarded his affection for the railroad as a matter of inheritance. One of his uncles had been a motorman (recently retired after thirty years on the road), and as a boy Bud had admired him extravagantly. On a few occasions— on calm, lazy Sunday runs— his uncle had smuggled him into the cab and even let him touch the controls. So, from boyhood on, Bud set his sights on becoming a motorman. Right after graduating high school, he took the Civil Ser vice test, which offered the option of being a conductor or a bus driver. Although driving a bus paid better, he wasn’t tempted; his interest lay in the railroad. Now, when he became eligible by serving six months as a conductor— only forty days more to go— he would take the motorman test.

Meanwhile, he was having a good time. He had taken to the job right from the start and had even enjoyed the training period—twenty- eight days of school, followed by a week on actual runs under the tutelage of an experienced man. Matson, who had broken him in on the runs, was an old- timer with a year to go to retirement. He was a good teacher, but he had soured on the job and was direly pessimistic about the future of the railroad. He predicted that five years hence it would be patronized exclusively by niggers and spies and maybe run by them, too. Matson was a walking encyclopedia of atrocity stories, and if you took him seriously, working a subway train was just a trifle less hazardous than frontline duty in Vietnam. Hour by hour, according to Matson, a conductor risked serious bodily injury or even death, and you could consider yourself blessed if you survived the day.

A lot of the older conductors— and even some of the younger ones— peddled tales of horror, and while Bud didn’t exactly disbelieve them, he certainly hadn’t had any trouble himself. Oh, sure, a few times passengers had cussed him out, but that was to be expected. The conductor was visible, so, naturally, he was blamed for everything that went wrong. But outside of dirty looks and some verbal abuse, he had had absolutely none of the bad experiences the old- timers kept dwelling on, such as being spat at, beaten up, robbed, stabbed, vomited on by drunks, mobbed by school kids, or hit in the face by someone on the platform as you leaned out of your window when the train pulled out of a station. The last of these worried conductors the most, and there were a million horror stories: about the conductor who had taken a finger in the eyeball and eventually lost the eye; about another who had his nose broken by a fist; about still another who was grabbed by the hair and nearly pulled out the window...

“Fifty- first Street, this station is Fifty- first Street.” He delivered his announcement into the mike in a clear, cheerful voice, and it pleased him to know that it was heard simultaneously in all ten cars. As the train moved into the station, he inserted his skate key (it was properly known as a drumstick key, but everyone called it skate key) into the receptacle in the bottom of the panel and turned it to the right. Then he inserted the door key and, as soon as the train stopped, pressed the buttons to open the doors.

He leaned far out of his window to check the passengers getting on and off, then shut the doors, rear section first, then front section. He checked his indication box, which was lit up to show that the doors were all closed and locked. The train started, and he hung out the window for the regulation three car lengths, to make sure that nobody was being dragged. This was where a lot of the old- timers cheated, with their morbid fear of being assaulted.

“Grand Central station, next stop. The next stop is Grand Central.”

He stepped out of the cab and took up a position against the storm door. He folded his arms across his chest, and studied the passengers. It was his favorite pastime. He played at trying to figure out, from the passengers’ appearance and attitudes, what their lives were like: what kind of work they did, how much money they made, where and how they lived, even what place they were headed for. In some cases it was easy— delivery boys, women who looked like house wives, domestics or secretaries, old retired people. But with others, especially the better class, it posed a real challenge. Was a well- dressed man a teacher, a lawyer, a salesman, a business executive? Actually, except for rush hours, there weren’t too many of the better class riding the IRT; it ran a poor third to the BMT and the IND. He couldn’t explain why. Maybe it was a matter of routes, of better neighborhoods, but it was hard to prove that. It might be due to the fact that the IRT was the oldest of the three divisions, with fewer routes and less equipment (which was why its training period was only twenty- eight days compared to thirty- two on the other divisions), but you couldn’t really prove that either. He braced himself against the roll of the train (actually, he liked the motion and his ability to adapt to it the way a sailor developed sea legs) and focused his attention on the man sitting facing the cab. He was striking for his size— breadth, really, he wasn’t all that tall— and his white hair. He was well dressed in a dark raincoat and new hat, and his shoes were highly polished, so he was certainly no messenger, in spite of the large, fat florist’s box between his knees. That meant he had bought the flowers for someone and would be delivering them in person. Looking at him, the kind of tough face he had, you wouldn’t have thought of him as somebody who bought flowers. But you couldn’t tell a book by its cover, which was what made life interesting. He could be anything— a college professor, a poet...

The decelerating train dragged under Bud’s feet. He set the pleasant puzzle to one side and went into the cab. “Grand Central station. Change for the express. This is Grand Central... ”

Over the years, Ryder had developed some theories about fear— two, to be exact. The first was that it had to be handled the way a good infielder played a ground ball; he didn’t wait for it to come to him, he went to meet it, he forced the issue. Ryder coped with fear by confronting it. So that, instead of looking elsewhere, he stared directly at the transit cop. The cop became aware of his scrutiny and turned to him, then quickly averted his gaze. After that he kept his eyes to the front, self- consciously rigid. His face was slightly reddened, and Ryder knew that he would be sweating, too.

Ryder’s second theory— which the cop, helpfully, was illustrating— was that people in tight situations showed stress because they wanted to. They were appealing for mercy for their harmlessness, as a dog did who rolled on his back for a fiercer or larger dog. They were making a public display of their symptoms, rather than controlling them. He was convinced that, short of pissing your pants, which was involuntary, you only showed fear to the degree that you wanted or allowed yourself to show.

Ryder’s theories were offshoots of the very simple philosophy that ruled his life and that he rarely talked about. Not even under friendly pressure. Especially not under pressure, friendly or otherwise. He remembered a conversation with a doctor in the Congo. He had walked bloody- legged to a forward aid station to have a bullet removed from his thigh. The doctor was an Indian, with an elegant, amused air, who plucked a spent rifle round out of his flesh with a flourish of his forceps, a man who was as interested in form as substance, a man with style, which didn’t at all explain what he was doing serving in a crazy little African war between two highly disorganized factions of wild- eyed niggers.

Except money. Except? It was a good enough reason.

The doctor held the bloody metal up for him to view before flipping if into a basin, then cocked his head and said, “Are you not the officer they call Captain Ironass?” The doctor wore major’s pips, not that rank meant all that much in this funny army, except as an insigne of a man’s salary. The doctor dragged down a hundred or two more a month than he did.

“Excuse me,” Ryder said. “You’re looking at it. Is it iron?”

“No need to get shirty,” the doctor said. He framed a packing against the wound and discarded it for a smaller one. “Just curiosity. You’ve developed a bit of a reputation.”

“For what?”

“Fearlessness.” He held the packing in place deftly with slender brown fingers. “Or recklessness. Opinion is divided.” Ryder shrugged. In a corner of the medical tent a black soldier, half- naked, lay doubled up on a stretcher, crying softly but persistently. The doctor found him with a long look, and the man became silent.

“I’d be interested in hearing your own judgment of the matter,” the doctor said.

Ryder shrugged again and watched the brown fingers applying tape to the dressing. Wait until the tape had to be pulled away from the hair. That would be a test of courage. The doctor paused, his dark face turned upward humorously. Ryder said, “You’ve probably seen more than I have, Major. I defer to you.”

The doctor spoke confidently. “No such characteristic as fearlessness. Recklessness, yes. Not caring, yes. Some people wish to die.”

“Meaning me?”

“Can’t really say, not knowing you. All I know is rumor. You can put your trousers on now.”

Ryder examined the bloody tear in his pants before pulling them up. “Too bad,” he said. “I was counting on you for a conclusion.”

“I am not a psychiatrist,” the doctor said in half apology.

“Merely curious.”

“Not me.” Ryder picked up his steel helmet— it was remaindered World War II Wehrmacht goods— and put it on, tapping it down firmly so that the short brim shadowed his eyes. “I’m not the least bit curious.”

The major flushed, then gave a sporting smile. “Well, I do think I’ve gained an insight to why they call you Captain Ironass. Take care of yourself.”

Watching the unhappy profile of the transit’ cop, Ryder thought: I could have given the Indian doctor an answer, but he would probably have misinterpreted it and concluded that I was talking about reincarnation. You live or you die, Major, that’s my simple philosophy. You lived or you died. Which didn’t translate as either recklessness or fearlessness. It didn’t mean you courted death or saw no mystery or loss in death. It just canceled out most of the complications of existing, just reduced the principal uncertainty of life to a workable formula. No excruciating exploration of possibilities, just the stark profundity of yes or no: You lived or you died.

A train was coming into the station. Near the transit cop, directly under the number 8 marker, a leaner was bent so far forward that he appeared to have overcommitted himself. Ryder tensed and almost made a first step toward the man, to pull him back to safety, thinking: No, not today, not now. But the man drew back at the last moment, his hands thrown out wardingly in a belated refl ex of fright. The train stopped, and the doors opened. The transit cop stepped in.

Ryder looked at the motorman. He was sitting on his metal stool, his arm resting on his half- open window. He was a black man— no, black was a misnomer, Ryder thought, a political color; actually, he was a light tan— and he was indifferently covering a stretching yawn with his hand. He glanced out of his window without interest, then checked his indication box, which, like the conductor’s, lit up when the doors were closed and locked.

The train started. Its designation (since headway between local trains was five minutes at this time of day) would be Pelham One One Eight, according to the simple, effective system that identified a train by the prefix of its terminus and the suffix of its time of departure from that terminus. Thus, having left Pelham Bay Park station at 1:18 P.M., its designation was Pelham One One Eight. On the return trip from its southern terminus, Brooklyn Bridge station, its new designation would be something on the order of Brooklyn Bridge Two One Four. At least, Ryder thought, that would be the case on a normal day. But today was not a normal day; today there would be some considerable disruption of the schedule.

As the third car of the train went by, Ryder spotted the transit cop. He was leaning against a pole, and his right shoulder was low, so low that he looked as if he were standing on an incline. Suppose he hadn’t got on the train? They had prearranged a signal for aborting if some unforeseen danger arose. Would he have used it? Would he have withdrawn from the engagement to fight another day? He gave a minimal shake of his head. No need to answer. What you might have done didn’t count, only what you did.

The last car of the train sped past the platform and into the tunnel toward Twenty- third Street. New passengers were appearing. A young black man— this one was the color of bitter chocolate— was first, splendid in a sky- blue cloak, red and blue checkerboard pants, tan shoes with a three- inch heel, a black leather beret. He came on in a loose- jointed swagger, strutted by, and took up his position a car length beyond the 10 marker. Almost immediately, he leaned over the platform and stared northward with affront.

Peace, brother, Ryder thought, Pelham One Two Three will be pulling in in less than five minutes, and being hostile toward the track won’t bring it along any sooner. The young black turned suddenly, as if aware that he was being watched. He faced Ryder squarely, his eyes defiant, glaring out of clear, hard whites. Ryder met the challenge without interest, his own eyes mild, and thought: Relax, brother, conserve your energy, you might need it.

At Grand Central, responding to the hold signal, three horizontal yellow lights, Pelham One Two Three kept its doors open, waiting for the next express train to pull in. Joe Welcome had been on the platform for fifteen minutes, restless and edgy, checking the arrival and departure of local trains against his watch, glaring at the express trains for their irrelevance. Fidgeting, he had walked an erratic sentry post of thirty or forty feet, alternately eyeing the women on the platform and himself in the mirrors of the vending machines. The women were all crummy and made his lip curl. An ugly broad was a curse. He derived more satisfaction from his own image— the handsome, reckless face, olive skin a shade paler than usual, the dark eyes glowing with a strange fire. Now that he had got used to the mustache and the sideburns that curved inward toward his lips in a pointed flourish, he kind of liked them.

They were a hell of a good match with the soft glossy black of his hair.

When he heard Pelham One Two Three come in, Joe Welcome walked back to the last car. He was sharp and jaunty in his navy blue raincoat, slightly suppressed at the waist, ending an inch or two above the knees. His hat was dark gray, with a narrow curled brim and a bright yellow cockade flowering out of the band. When the train stopped, he went in through the last door, pushing against the flow of three or four people seeking to get out. His valise, brown and tan in wide alternate stripes, banged against the knee of a young Puerto Rican girl. She gave him a sidelong resentful look and muttered something.

“You talk to me, spic?”

“Why’n you watch where you go?”

“Up you brown ass, righ’?”

She started to say something but, assessing the malice of his smile, changed her mind. She stepped out of the train, looking back over her shoulder indignantly. Across the platform, the express train came in, and a few passengers trickled into the local. Welcome glanced into the rear half of the car, then began to walk toward the front, looking at the passengers on both sides of the aisle. He passed into the next car, and as the door slid shut behind him, the train started with a sudden jerk, throwing him off balance. Recovering awkwardly, he glared forward at the motorman eight cars ahead.

“Mother,” he said aloud, “where you learn to drive a fucking train?”

Still glaring, he walked on, his eyes sweeping the passengers. People. Meat. No cops, nothing that looked like a hero. He walked with confidence, and the sharp sound of his footfall compelled attention. It pleased him to see so many eyes turn up to him, and it pleased him even more to stare them down, mowing a whole row of eyes down like ducks in a shooting gallery. He never missed. Bang, bang, down they went. It was his eyes. Occhi violenti, his uncle had called them. Violent eyes, and he knew how to use them, he knew how to scare the piss out of people.

In the fifth car, he located Steever at the far end. He flicked a look at him, but Steever ignored him, his face stolid and vacant. On his way to the next car he brushed by the conductor, a young stud neatly dressed in pressed blue, the golden Transit Authority badge on his billed hat brightly polished. He hurried on and reached the first car as the train decelerated. He put his back against the door and placed his valise on the floor between the points of his Spanish shoes.

“Thirty- third Street, station stop is Thirty- third Street.”

The conductor’s voice was high- pitched but strong, and the amplification made it sound like the voice of a big man. But he was a pale redheaded string bean, Welcome thought, and if you hit him right you would probably break his jaw like a piece of china. The image of a jaw fragmenting like a fragile teacup struck him as funny. Then he frowned, remembering Steever sitting there like a chunk of wood with that flower box between his legs. That was Steever, a dumb ape. Plenty of muscle, but just muscle; upstairs was an empty room. Steever. With the flower box, yet.

A few passengers got off; a few entered. Welcome picked out Longman, sitting opposite the motorman’s cab. He was quite a distance away. The car was seventy- two feet long, right? Seventy- two feet, and it had forty- four seats. The BMT and the IND, what they called the B-1 and B-2 divisions (IRT was the A Division, right?), were seventy- five feet long, and they had up to sixty- five seats. Big deal, making him learn that shit. Nothing.

As the doors started to shut, a chick bumped it back with her shoulder and slipped in. He looked at her with interest. Short- short mini skirt, long legs in white boots, a little round ass. So far so good, Welcome thought, now let’s see the front view. He smiled as she turned, and checked off great boobs stretching away at some kind of a light- pink sweater under a short green jacket that matched the little skirt. Big eyes, heavy fake lashes, wide gorgeous mouth with lots of bright- red lipstick, long black hair falling straight down out of one of those sexy soldier hats with the brim curved up on one side, flat against the crown. Australian? Anzac. An Anzac hat.

She took a seat in the front half of the car, and when she crossed her legs, the little skirt climbed halfway up to her neck. Nice. He concentrated on the long expanse of thigh and leg and visualized them wrapped around his neck. For starters.

“Twenty- eighth Street.” The conductor’s voice, singing out like an angel. “Next stop is Twenty- eighth Street.”

Welcome wedged his hip securely against the brass handle of the door. Twenty- eighth Street. Okay. He made a rough count of the seated passengers. About thirty or so, plus a couple of kids standing up, looking out of the front storm door. About half of them would have to get the boot. But not the chick in the funny hat. She was staying, no matter what Ryder or anybody said. Crazy, thinking about pussy at a time like this? So he was crazy. But she was staying. She would provide, like they say, the love interest.

In the first car of the train, Longman sat in the seat that corresponded to Steever’s, five cars back. It was directly opposite the shut steel door of the motorman’s cab, decorated with an elaborately scripted signature in hot pink: PANCHO 777. His package, covered in heavy wrapping paper and bound with coarse yellow twine, was marked in black crayon: “Everest Printing Corp., 826 Lafayette Street.” He held it between his knees, with his forearms resting on its top, and his fingers loosely burrowed beneath the intersection where the strands of twine were knotted.

He had boarded Pelham One Two Three at Eighty- sixth Street, to make certain that, at some point before Twenty eighth Street, he would find the seat opposite the cab unoccupied. Not that that particular seat was essential, but he had been stubborn about it. He had won his point, but only because nobody cared about it one way or another. He realized now that he had pressed for it because he knew there would be no opposition. Otherwise, Ryder would have made the decision. Wasn’t it actually because of Ryder that he was here at all, about to plunge into a nightmare wide awake?

He watched the two boys at the window of the storm door. They were about eight and ten, identically plump and round- faced, both healthfully flushed and intent on their game of driving the train through the tunnel, to an orchestrated accompaniment of appropriate clicks and hisses of voice and tongue. He wished that they weren’t there, but it was inevitable. On any given train, at any given time, there was sure to be a kid or two— sometimes, an adult!— romantically playing motorman. Some romance! When the train reached Thirty- third Street, he began to sweat. Not gradually, but all at once, as if a heat wave had suddenly swept through the car. It broke out all over his body and face, an oily slick that fogged the dark shades over his eyes and spilled down his chest, his legs, his crotch... For an instant, as the train entered the tunnel, it bucked, and he felt a heart- stopping surge of hope. His mind leaped to round out the picture: Something wrong with the motor, the motorman hits the brake and lays dead. The shop sends a car knocker; he looks it over, scratches his head. So they have to cut the power, dump their load, lead their passengers to an emergency exit, and haul the train away to the yard...

But the buck disappeared, and Longman knew— as he had all along— that the train was okay. Either the motorman had made a clumsy start, or it was just a train that bucked, one of those dogs that motormen hated to get stuck with.

Not because he believed in them, but out of desperation, his mind sought out other possibilities. Suppose one of the others had suddenly taken sick or been in an accident? No. Steever wouldn’t have the brains to know he was sick, and Ryder... Ryder would get off his deathbed if he had to. Maybe Welcome, feisty and crazy as he was, had gotten into a fight over some fancied insult— He looked back to the rear of the car and saw Welcome there.

I’m going to die today.

The thought came unbidden to his mind, accompanied by a sudden gust of heat, as though a flash fire had been touched off inside his body. He felt suffocated and wanted to tear his clothing off and give his burning body air. He fumbled at the button at the neck of his raincoat and worked it half free before stopping. Ryder had said they weren’t to open any part of the coat. His fingers forced the button back through the buttonhole.

His legs began to tremble, shivering down their length to his shoes. He placed his hands on his knees, palms flat, and pressed downward to nail his feet to the dirty composition floor, to stop their involuntary little jig of fear. Was he being conspicuous? Were people staring at him? But he didn’t dare look up to see. Like an ostrich. He looked at his hands and saw them crawl under the knotted twine on the package, twist into it until they began to hurt. He pulled his fingers away, examined them, and then blew cooling breath on his reddened index finger and forefinger. Through the window opposite his seat the gray rushing wall of the tunnel blinked out and widened into the tile of the station wall.

“Twenty- eighth Street. Station is Twenty- eighth Street.”

He was up on his feet. His legs were trembling, but he was moving well enough, dragging his package after him. He stood facing the cab door, bracing against the train’s rapid deceleration. Outside, the platform was becoming less of a blur, slowing down. The two boys at the storm door were making hissing noises as they put the brakes on. He glanced at the rear of the car. Welcome had not moved. Through the storm door he watched the platform jerk to a stop. People were moving forward, waiting for the doors to open. He saw Ryder.

Ryder was leaning against the wall, very relaxed.